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Zubaidah Ibrahim's avatar

There’s a way you articulate your feelings that says ‘yes, that’s exactly what I’ve been trying to put into words.’ Raw and deeply profound. Proud of you for fighting that voice. You deserve all the goodness in this world🤍

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Ebun's avatar

You’re still alive, so there’s hope that things will get better.

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ayesha's avatar

Not to be a pessimist, just out of curiosity: what if it never does?

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Fatima Aliyu's avatar

I keep thinking this too omg

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fern's avatar

hunny you need Jesus. Hes the only one who can fill that hole within you. He gives peace and joy. He'll 'set a fire down in your bones'. you where made to be His and not the bevil's. He has a plan for you, and even though it might not seem that way, its true. start reading the Bible and go DEEP. there is sooo much in there and even if you've read it through and though multiple times, there will always be verses that pop up to you when you need them most and you go, IVE NEVER READ THIS BEFORE!!! just imagine Jesus coming down to earth and leaving His Fathers side to come and die for OUR sins. He never committed a single sin, and yet He was willing to die for ours. why? because that's what kinda love He has. He wants us in heaven some day and I want u there too. I'll be praying♡

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Fatima Aliyu's avatar

Thank you so much I appreciate this so much🥹❤️

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fern's avatar

💛✨God is always seeking you. every sunset, every clear blue sky, every ocean wave, the starry host of night. He blankets each day with the invatation "I am here". ~Louis Gigleo

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Life n Death Matter's avatar

Yes Fatima. Contact Jesus! Not as some biblical religious figure but as a real human being who was here and suffered the same stuff you do. A brother, an older wiser brother. If you will loosen up your mind and allow it you can talk to him like any old friend or family member you love.

Give it a try

I have a feeling that when you come thru this you are going to be a big voice for Life!

Contact me if/before you pull the trigger. I don’t condemn you if you want to go, but having been where you are. I just want to make sure that you are 100% sure that it is the right thing to do.

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aksara nadi's avatar

even in the midst of this misery one thing for sure is ur a prolific writer, it would be a significant loss to the earth. please hold on a bit more, its dragging i know but ur getting closer to the light each day ur holding on❤️

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Fatima Aliyu's avatar

this made me cry thank you so much😭

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Studio Tom Rowland's avatar

I’m stuck in a fairly deep depression at the moment. I want you to feel seen. Let’s hold hands and make it through together ❤️

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Fatima Aliyu's avatar

Yesss! I hope it gets better for us❤️

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Studio Tom Rowland's avatar

I have to believe that it will ❤️

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AnonymousSunflower ☀️'s avatar

Sometimes when I’m driving I think about swerving into oncoming traffic. I don’t know why

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Wvywvrd's avatar

This is so raw. I’ve spent years in this exact place. It has gotten easier over time. I hope you find ease and peace soon. Thank you for sharing.

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wds's avatar

this is so heartbreakingly human.

not loud. not dramatic. just… there. like a shadow that never stops clinging to your heels, even when the sun is shining. it’s terrifying how these thoughts can slide in so quietly, in moments as soft as slicing watermelon in a warm kitchen. the fact that it felt normal—that’s the part that grips the heart the most. because pain that gets that quiet, that familiar, becomes almost impossible to talk about.

you’ve put into words something so many carry and can’t name: the exhaustion of performing okay, the constant presence of a weight no one else sees, the ache that never quite leaves. this wasn’t a cry for attention—it’s a whisper for peace. and it’s so clear how deeply, deeply tired you are.

thank you for saying this out loud.

thank you for letting it breathe.

you are not alone in that kitchen. you are not alone in that thought.

you deserve rest, and not the kind that ends things—

the kind that lets you live. really live. without the ache, without the fog.

and that is still possible. even if it doesn’t feel like it today.

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Fatima Aliyu's avatar

You are so so sweet this made me tear up thank you so much for this🥺❤️

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ramblingrose's avatar

as someone that has felt this way, i resonate with this so much. it gets better. i swear. just keep writing because writing saves us writers🫶🏼

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Fatima Aliyu's avatar

Thank you so much I needed this

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ramblingrose's avatar

of course. sending luv<333

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Oluwapelumi's avatar

If I was this articulate,then I’d thought I probably wrote this.These feelings I’ve never had so much words for is all you’ve articulated so clearly.

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Oluwaseun💙's avatar

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dvynx's avatar

this is what my intrusive thoughts are like.

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Fungai Machirori's avatar

Thank you for sharing so honestly. I resonate with the pain you feel, the desire for rest when it feels like nothing in you can find it. I hope for better days for you.

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eleanorthewordsmith's avatar

Hello stranger

I know what it feels like, when you try to name what you feel. The people around you think you are crazy but you are not crazy. Wherever you are, I hope you are okay. And if you ever need someone to talk to this stranger will be there. You are incredible for being so brave for giving this monster a face.

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Zak's avatar

Wow. Whilst reading this article i thought all these feelings were normal as everyone including myself had them.

Until i got halfway through the article and took a moment to reflect and realise that whilst these feelings are normal for me and many others like yourself they aren’t really normal. The thoughts are actually quite terrifying and dark.

Until you put these thoughts into writing i didn’t really pay any attention to them but now i’m in a state of shock trying to process all of them.

Thank you for this article it has shown me that I have so much to learn about myself.

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Oluwaseun💙's avatar

I've never related more to a writing. But God will walk us through this life. Give us the peace and meaning we're seeking for💙

This is your first writing I've come across...it's such a beautiful work💗

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mackenzie .'s avatar

You put so amazingly how I felt, but struggled to put into words for so long. Wow

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